Oh, Baby!

Boy, do we have news! We’re having a baby!!

Some backstory:

Max is almost two and since he was born, I’ve wondered if he’d be our last baby. I’ve spoken to so many friends about how they knew when they were “done”, and nearly everyone described a sense of certainty they had when they were finished having kids. I never felt that certainty. Not with Leah, or Evi, or Max. I did know that we needed some time after Evi was born (hence the seven year break), and about a year before I became pregnant with Max I had a strong feeling that someone was missing from our family. When he was born, I knew he was meant to be with us, but I still didn’t have a sense of finality. I honestly reached the point where I thought I might never feel “done”, and we’d just have to make an analytical decision about moving on to the next chapter of our lives.

But then I had a week of feeling utterly exhausted. Like, in bed at 8 pm and couldn’t muster the energy to put on pants exhausted. And then a tiny, budding feeling that something was different in my body.

So I took a pregnancy test. And then another. And this intense feeling of peace and certainty rushed over me at the sight of those two little lines. “This is it,” I thought. “This is our family.” The knowing that had eluded me for the last twelve years had finally shown itself.

So baby number four, our last baby, is on the way! I suspect this pregnancy will carry a different weight than my previous three, knowing that this is the last one. Every milestone, every flutter, every kick will be a little more precious. I know all too well just how quickly it all goes.

Thank you for sharing in this joy with me, friends! I’m elated to add one more soul to our little tribe. Love to you all 💛.